This is a post before the start of the New Year—before the onslaught of carefully crafted advertisements insidiously suggests that you, as you are, right now, is not enough—before you resolve to model yourself in the image of a thing that is purposefully just beyond reach—this is a post to say to hell with all that. A post to say that none of it matters, not really.
Except that, when you’re struggling with it, it does.
So let’s tease that out for a minute, shall we?
Your experience matters. Your feelings matter. Your struggle matters.
What you look like in a pair of jeans does not.
Resolve to eat more nutritious foods. Resolve to eat more colorful foods. Resolve to be good to your body. But do it for your heart, for your bones, for the neuropathways in your brain. Do it because the body is a complex and perfectly-designed system that craves honest-to-goodness-actual-food.
To hell with the lie that what you look like is anyone else’s business. Or that beauty exists on a narrowly-defined spectrum. And to hell with the pervasive notion that a person’s worth has anything to do with what they look like.
You’re good as you are—right now. Get rid of the scale and the timeline and the flimsy definition of what constitutes health. It’s messier than that and so—ultimately—more meaningful. Live your life, feed yourself, keep going.