on beauty

i feel pretty. oh so pretty.


it happened tonight.


as i was standing on the subway.

shuffling feet, finding a tenuous balance.

matted, greasy hair.

red, blotchy face (post work-out coupled with sudden onset of rosacea).

and i was eating watermelon. it was all over my fingers.

i felt like a mess. in fact i'm quite sure i was a mess.

and just then, as the watermelon juice began to drip down my chin, it happened, i had the thought:

huh, i feel beautiful. in this moment--just now, i feel really, actually, quite beautiful.



and there you have it. and that is life.