Happy New Year!

i've been thinking about this impending new year a lot in the last few weeks.

i love new years, birthdays--any time the calendar gives us a chance to begin again.

i make long lists. carefully note all the things i'd like to change about myself.

i suppose it goes back to all those after-school-specials where the geeky kid comes back from summer vacation transformed. i've been waiting for that all my life. the day i suddenly wake up and have it... together (for lack of a better word).

but, i'm laughing as i write this, because i'm realizing it probably happens that way for very few (if at all).

and while i have goals for this year, and wishes and great aspirations, i'll write them down next week. because for today i resolve to accept that where i am right now, is just fine. perfect in fact. and there is nothing to change. only bits and pieces to add.

today i resolve to resolve nothing.

that being said, below are some words and images i'm pocketing away to take with me into this new year.

may 2010 bring you all that you've ever wished for. i cannot thank you all enough for your kind words, support, and continued encouragement. your presence and friendships have brought me so much more that i'll ever be able to convey to you.

see you in the new year!

with all the love i have to give,


"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times a little hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

Marilyn Monroe

let's go said he
not too far said she
what's too far said he
where you are said she

e.e. cummings

"People discuss my art and pretend to understand as if it were necessary to understand, when it's simply necessary to love."

Claude Monet

images 1 (quote picture), 2, 4, and 5 via sabino
3, 6, 7, and 8 via tweexcore

Sunday night is no longer girl's night.

We had so much fun with Brian last week, we just had to have him back.

Angela made pasta and chocolate cake (with apple sauce instead of oil) and I just about ate myself into oblivion. Yes...it was that good. And then we watched American Idol, a show I've never seen. And so let me say this...I am a convert. Body and soul. That shit is funny. Okay? Seriously, I can't stop laughing. Two girls performed a rap that involved the line, "why to trying to stealing my cookie from me?" And I thought, yes girls, yes.

So the lovely Sheilia of Hawaii commented (and I quote) "I sometimes fantasize about being single again through your blog..." and so I sat back, sighed, and then patted myself on the back. Yes, yes, I'm such a good--such a model single gal. And then I flashed back on Christmas  break and my mom's loudly-voiced concern that I don't date enough. And let's be honest, part of being single (one of the best parts) is dating. And I just don't do it. Ever (besides the storied blind-date). 

So I pose the following question: Am I really, truly a single gal AND am I really, truly doing single gals justice if I don't shop around?

Let's look at the evidence:

1. Angela and I stayed in Saturday night watched Pride and Prejudice (love, love, love me the Mr. Darcy in the updated version) followed by Sense and Sensibility

2. I then  attempted to make oatmeal cookies using only splenda, real oats,organic puree pumpkin paste, and coffee-mate. I got sick about five minutes after my first bite (yes, Angela, you tried to warn me). 

3. As for Friday night... (a)I was something of a third wheel with Vic and Rob. (b) I cringed when Erin tried to introduce me to a boy (a very cute boy). (c) And I never got up the courage to introduce myself to the other cute boy I was crushin' on.

Okay, so that's a rhetorical question...of course I'm a single gal. But I'm tired of being the single gal who doesn't date. So ladies, hide your men because I'm hittin' the town. The good news is...I've gotten a job...at a restaurant...and it has a revolving door. A revolving door where men may enter perhaps? Oh boy, I sound a little raunchy. My point is...never too late to add an addendum to that New Year's resolution.